In the Beginning

Greetings,
For those of you who do blogs or read blogs, i would like you to know this is my first ever blog. The reason I've never "blogged" before is because i honestly never saw the point of it. I always thought it was just another dumb form of social networking that gave people an excuse to waste time instead of doing productive work. Well now i have to admit that i have come to my senses and realized that blogging is much more than wasting time, but actually it is a way to open up your life to those around you. We all spend a lot of time either working, going to school, or just plan being busy. As a result we rarely have time to talk and connect with those around us. By keeping good connections with family and friends we expand our relationships and grow closer together. It took a while to realize these things, because i would read other blogs and just not get it. But now i see that by reading my cousin Aaron's blog it allowed my Aunt Wanda to connect with Aaron and grow a wonderful relationship. So with that i felt that this was my time to start up the hobby in order to better connect with everyone.

Now that i have started my journey of "blogging" i really took some time to think about what to write about. I guess the reason i am really excited about this idea of blogging is because there were a lot of things left unsaid between my aunt Wanda and I. Not in a bad sense but in a sense of i wish i could of taken the time out to talk to her more and fill her in more about my new college life and other fun times. I wish i could go back and thank her for all the small cans of soda she would give me when she would let us come over and swim in her pool. I wish i could tell her how much fun she was and how no matter how bad of a mood i was in her smile and bright attitude would always cheer me up. As bad as it hurts that i didn't get to say one last goodbye, i feel so much better knowing that Wanda and I share so many wonderful memories and fun times. Those memories will last forever even as time passes.

As i sit back and think about the last few months i think about how strong Wanda truly was. To be able to fight for so long really makes me step back and think, how could i ever make another excuse or how could i ever complain about something after she did all that and she didn't even have a choice. As much as i wish i could go back in time and do things differently i can't, none of us can. As much as my heart goes out for Gerry, the Girls, and the rest of my family i know deep down Wanda wouldn't want us to stay locked up all day and be sad, nor does she want us to forget about her even though we never will. She wants us to live everyday as if she was still here, because even though we might not be able to see her, she is still here with us every single day, watching, listening, and guiding us.

Each morning when we awake
we know that you are gone.
And no one knows the heartache
As we try to carry on.

Our hearts still ache with sadness
and many tears still flow.
What it meant to lose you,
No one will ever know.

Our thoughts are always with you,
your place no one can fill.
In life we loved you dearly,
In death we love you still.

There will always be a heartache,
and often a silent tear,
But always a precious memory
Of the days when you were here.

If tears could make a staircase,
And heartaches make a lane,
We'd walk the path to heaven
And bring you home again.

We hold you close within our hearts,
And there you will remain,
To walk with us throughout our lives
Until we meet again.



Its hard to put pain into words but it can also help you overcome some of the hurt and bring smiles to others. I will never forget any of the good times and the memories you gave me Wanda. Thank You.
Love Your Nephew,
Travis =]

To be continued...

P.s- more photos will be added shorty =]